I've always found this line of thinking quite sad because it reflects a deep rejection of what you do for a living that translates in low self-steem: "I don't deserved to be loved because of what I do, no man in his right frame of mind would want me, Once I find a decent way of living I'll find the right man etc... There's a lot of "self'sabotage" with that line of thinking. It's like that Groucho Marx quote: "I refuse to join a club that would have me as a member" sans the irony.
I understand that being an escort you're a wee tired when you get home because you're tired of entertaining men but to close yourself that much emotionally? or shutting yourself to the possibility of affection? Life is short
I disagree cuz I think the same as Umrao I could never date a customer. And it's not just because I'm not attracted. The moment they step foot in my door to pay me to suck their dick, they are automatically disqualified. It's just a turn off for me. Even if they were young and good looking, which is very very few and far between, almost non existent, they still somehow appear unattractive when they hand over that cash. Not that buying sex is ugly. I didnt expect them to want to date me either (most want to date for freebies) knowing that I have sex with other men for a living. I know it's just a job, but if I had a bf and he was a male escort and I wasn't, I couldn't bare that. To think this guy that I care for and I like is having sex with other women. I wouldnt be ok with it. Same if he was having sex with other women for free, it will hurt me. Wether he is getting paid or not. But men aren't wired like that, they couldn't give a shit, so long as they get to fuck you, so it makes sense. I don't think Umrao comments reflects deep rejection and low self esteem. What we do is frowned upon a lot in society, so when a man is opened to and willing to date prostitutes, it seems odd. (Perhaps they get turned on knowing other men are paying for it, but he gets in for free(It's an ego booster for him) . Not that we don't think we deserve to be loved but....its hard to explain..Anyways., I take it you are ok with dating punters Ana?