Really hope things pick up for you soon. As its horrible feeling like its your own fault and not having control of how much interest you get. Plus really hope you enjoy your night out at the opera. Sounds like you very much deserve a fun night out 
Thank you MsLady!

excatly these feelings, btw i am happy!.. it is just that sometimes you would like to understand..may be is better do not try to do it..
yes, i feel like is my own fault, so i am updating my gallery, profile, blog, and blabla...to feel not guilty..at least i done something to boost..then no control, no worries!
money or not..will be a nice day and thank you for your post! made my day it too!