I've bottled a few jobs recently. My phone's doing well and I could have been really busy over the last few weeks. Instead of trying to work flat out I've been accepting only the nicest sounding of jobs, but most of even these I've found myself unable to go through with. It's not a loss of confidence, at least I don't think it is, and I really can't believe I've been so stupid as to mess up such lovely, well paying bookings. I seriously need to sort my head out as money's dwindling away. I'm amazed nobody's been slagging me on forums yet and I don't think my luck will hold out much longer.
I know what you mean about feeling crap Coty, I feel dreadful every time I let someone down. The loss of cash isn't what bothers me, it's the awful guilt of ruining somebody's day. Well today is the first day of the rest of my life and all that, and I'm going to pull myself together, stop disappointing and start earning.

Awww, hugs. I'm sorry you're feeling that way, but I'm glad I'm not the only one. Was beginning to think I was going insane. With me it is/was a combination of things. I was very sick for 4 weeks and I'm still feeling wiped out, but not leaving the flat for so long brought back my panic attacks...so finding it hard to get that first step outside the door. The other thing was this lovely guy had arranged to serenade me on a grand piano in the hotel foyer as I walked in. Lovely thought, but filled me with fear. And he was also asking for me to wear a skirt and high heels. I'm a very mature BBW...skirts don't look good on me and high heels I can't walk in. I don't mind skirts and high heels in the bedroom, but walking into a VERY posh hotel, and having someone serenading me on the piano, just filled me with dread and I bottled it. Bless him he went to so much trouble to arrange it too:-(

Coty xxx

Had a strange sort of time since my last post on here, I said I thought last week was going to be slow and  by way of calls it was, yet by the end of the week (saturday for me) takings were  not bad, not brill but not bad but most strange is hardly any TW's

This week (starts Sunday) to yesterday I had just  4 calls but all  were good ones, today had 3 calls 2 for bookings tomorrow and 1  for a black tie do the end of the Month, so again few calls but no TW's (so far) and an ok week again so far

I already have two 2hour hotel bookings for next week and a 1  hour day booking, needless to say they could all not happen but...

I must admit I felt very tired today so just as well no bookings but the phone has been quiet which can-be/ is a worry

Guess what.... all the tw's have phone credit again  thats all I'v had since yesterday

LOL. Do you think they've got paid or got their giro's!?

xx

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 I'm amazed nobody's been slagging me on forums yet and I don't think my luck will hold out much longer.
I know what you mean about feeling crap Coty, I feel dreadful every time I let someone down. The loss of cash isn't what bothers me, it's the awful guilt of ruining somebody's day. Well today is the first day of the rest of my life and all that, and I'm going to pull myself together, stop disappointing and start earning.
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Hey listen you need to do what is best for you!  Don't feel awful about letting someone down!  Without sounding too callous, these punters, whilst of course they may be regular and loyal to us, sometimes do go elsewhere! 

What I did notice was your concern about being slagged off on forums, presumably you mean the punter ones or one as is the case?  I have at times looked on the main one and get a bit vexed to be honest at the way they discuss us and talk about us like pieces of meat.  Am I the only one who feels like this?  Gosh, wouldn't it be great if we could talk about them openly like they do us!  Wonder how they would feel then!  OK, so whilst I understand that there are bad apples on both sides, I don't particularly like the way they discuss us like objects and it's a shame we are made to feel concerned if we are mentioned in a not so good light. 

Anyway, I think the main thing for you is to look after yourself.  Sometimes, if our head isn't in the right place and we are tired, fed up etc, then it can reflect in a booking anyway so maybe the best thing is to step back a bit, take a breather and then start taking the bookings again. 

However, it's also your prerogative to be choosy. Nothing wrong with that!  If your gut feeling doesn't feel good about a person on the other side of the phone, then it's your choice to take the booking or not.  Don't ever feel guilty about that. 

Take care of yourself and put yourself first, always.

Love
J x

It's so damn slow I forget I'm an escort!   

It's so odd but this is how the adult industry works, phones, cam escorting, it's like a rollercoaster. though I hate to admit it this is the longest low ever.

I'm running out of ideas on how to push myself. I cant offer incalls but I think I'm going to have to find some space to use somehow. Not that Ive not tried before, I don't really want to be out the house (unless actually on a booking) 

Got a few days off for some other business, which n itself adds stress so once its gone maybe i can be more focused

and I had some numpty text me asking if i could visit his hotel. Didnt recognise the hotel name so asks for more location details...it was in bloody London! idiot grrrr

just winds me up. 

Whats worse is because i do freechat on cams all I seem to talk about it escorting! I feel like such a fraud lol

Looking over the last 3 Months or more I have done really well with last week being about the best week of all


This week, apart from a booking for tomorrow , it's been dead, it's like someone has turned the lights and my phone off, Tuesday is normally a good day yet nothing, don't think I'll ever workout  the how and whys of it all
*shakes head*

It's strange suddenly not working after working  7 days a week then nothing to do.

Hey babe i tour London most months and i am here at the moment and it is much quieter then last month so far i have only seen regulars no new clients. I could be mistaken but i think summer isnt the best time to work in London. xx