Hi all! Hope all is well!
I haven’t been on here in a good few months, life is beating me up!
I’ve been wanting to get back into escorting since last year, I haven’t yet plucked up the courage to actually do so other than make a profile then hide it again. It’s uncovered all my anxiety all over again.
I loved escorting, more than any job. I haven’t escorted for I think 4 years now. When I think back to the 6/7 years I did it for, it’s mostly good memories and it makes me smile! I’ve always been part time and would see 2/3 clients a week, and that always worked perfectly for me, and that’s how I intend to carry on. I left escorting for a few years due to getting a little jaded after I had issues with a client and life simply catching up, then COVID happened so the “break” was actually a retirement! Since all of this I have put on weight, about 2/3 stone which I’m sick to the stomach about, for me there’s no excuse, I’ve always been a poor eater and a snacker, COVID made that easier, on top of that I lost my Dad who I loved so dearly and it really made my mental health crash.
I’m slowly seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, just vaguely, and I would love to get back to doing something that honestly brought me joy and pleasure, maybe not always on the sexual sense but in the sense that I was independent, bought in extra income that allowed me to reach my goals and do what I wanted and to be really honest escorting really boosted my confidence, I’ve always suffered with anxiety and struggled with new people, escorting really changed that for me and made me into a different person, from an introvert to an extrovert! Obviously with the pandemic I’ve switched back to the old me, and now with large weight gain I have zero confidence at all.
I was a BBW before but even more so now and I was just wondering is anyone here around a size 26 who does well and has no qualms about their size. How the hell do you do it?! I build myself up to get into it and then I crash and hide my profile because I simply don’t feel confident in my body anymore. I’m exercising and trying to better my diet but it’s taking time and I don’t want to pause my life any longer, I’d like to get back to what I love.
How do you overcome the weight gain (if you’ve had any), the anxiety and just the initial being out of the loop for so long? I definitely feel like a newbie but with knowledge!