I want male companionship more than anything and that's impossible to find as everyone else my age is looking to move in together and get married
I'm perfectly happy living alone.
After a certain age group, in my own experience, the inner need for "male companionship" may completely drop off. In my own case anyway, maybe, different in other older women, who are blissfully married.
I often feel that it was a biological/social need/"ideal/romantic image of "being with a man" that drove me to have LTRs when I was in a younger age group. I'm a lot older now. I'm glad that I had LTRs before when I had the energy, looking back. At least, I tried then.
Men (some) have a lot to offer. Long-term relationships are very important to have when you are younger (again, in my view). You get to go to places you wouldn't have even considered going or doing things you have never thought of doing. Never had these, you have not lived.
How can I be so sure? One can tell when we get much older and look back.
You only had one difficult LTR, you shouldn't "give up" based on the bad experience.
Escorting is only a job, it's part of life, but it should not be everything you do.
You need to have a personal life, too.
Again, my opinion. . .
