Sorry but just think who in their right mind would pay others for self harm causing death. The psycho's I say who are mentally disturbed. They need reporting to the mental hospitals for their own safety. As a deep inner issue sounds to be causing their minds lost. I wouldn't even consider for my own safety. What he can do to me harming me in that frame of mind. This would flash red flags right away. It is a risk doing this don't put yourself in even more with a psycho.
I would like to add say you did then got arrested charged. No more escorting being skint. So really was ?1,000 worth it if this happened. Some one can offer me 100,000 for a stunt as harming murdering them that will be hung up on straight away. No money should companensate for being branded a murderer, society are well against those.
I hope you make the right choice before it is too late for yourself.