I can spot BS much more quickly than I used to before starting escorting.

I'm much more assertive and don't take shit from anyone, work or personal wise.

I have more confidence. I've never been a fan of my looks/body but when clients keep telling me I'm beautiful/what they like etc, it eventually boosted my self esteem.

One thing that i have been thinking about is that my entire life I've been brought up to think that men are"prizes" (my culture is very patriarchal). A good man is what you get for being a good girl. And men are superior special beings that you have to act the "right" way to deserve.

I now know this is a bunch of bull.

This job also started off with me feeling majorly confident about myself. So many men telling me how beautiful, hot, smart I was.
Now i'm just an anxiety driven mess.

it also gave me the confidence to try out other things. start other businesses and not be so scared. so it gave me confidence in business  abilities.

I think it's the stress of always wondering if my phone is going to ring, if people are going to like my pictures and profile and want to book. If when the men walk through the door are they going to like me or not.

Because i  stupidly feel that this job is based on my appearance, it's made me a lot more critical of myself and I'm trying to get that out of my head but it's hard. Things I didn't care about before I know want to have surgery to change.
The positive comments don't reinforce that. i had a guy repeatedly call me "beautiful in a booking" then go on a forum and call me average, so i'm very suspicious of compliments.

I agree. The thing I worry about most is not 'will I be murdered by this man?' but 'will this man fancy me enough to now turn round and walk away without paying so I have spent time getting ready for nothing?'

They do seem to like me but it's always there, that worry. I think it's cos I am early 40's.

sorry i haven't read this but i will when i get home tonight (crappy agency work)
i hate men i hate them touching me kissing me I'm not as horny or interested in sex an when a guy flirts or says something like come to mine theres a comfortable seat when you get here PISSES ME OFF like can a guy like my company with out sex

but it comes with the job so you got to accept it
i like sex alot but i don't enjoy it when i work and I've been working a long time
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Made me truly value the beautiful, authentic sex that a committed relationship offers and how vastly different it is to the paid variety which is brilliant fun but in such a different way.

Exactly the same for me...except I am still seeking the former God loves a trier.

I've only been doing this for over a month, but i feel it's making me tougher. I feel almost invincible sometimes-if i can do this job with so many risks involved, hell, i can do anything!

My tolerance for bullshit has practically vanished; i can spot it in a split second now and i absolutely hate it.

I'm also losing respect for men. Most of the johns are so damn pathetic!! I get why single guys punt, but the married/in a relationship ones just make me sick. It seems so primitive to me-instead of working on yourself and your relationship, you go see escorts?..ooookayyy.seems to me that men are exactly like animals when it comes to sex.like, i read some forums where punters complain about their bad experiences with escorts:bitchy,rude,disinterested,even smelly-but what do they do when they meet an escort like that? That's right, have sex with her anyway.and don't even get me started on their super fragile egos, childish tantrums and dick worshipping!! I honestly wish i was gay because men are sooo incredibly primitive. 

men are sooo incredibly primitive. 

Some men are, yes. Was that what you meant to say?

I'll add that we've had women on this forum over the years who could give a privet hedge a run for its money in terms of emotional sensitivity and maturity, so it's maybe better expressed as some people are incredibly primitive. And naturally, others are not .

The way they can really enjoy sex without any emotion whatsoever makes me seriously wonder about them.

Are you including everybody who can enjoy sex without any emotion whatsoever? I daresay there's quite a few of us on this board.