i don't believe anyone ...this work change me a lot, with "friends", guys etc...
I'm little bit keep down, with all relationships, friendships ... in the end i find all guys just want one or my money ... and girls.. i don't want attack anyone but mostly want some information, where touring, how to advertisement, in which hotel can work ... etc etc etc
I'm really honest person, ppl around me know what i do.. i did before porn.. and honesty i don't want nobody hurt, with lie and make some stories why a lot travel... and after somebody will find my ad etc etc
i love what i do .. but sometimes i wish if can be all easy like work, u have just limited time, u know when is begging and when is end... and what exactly is happen... without silly manipulations and f.... brain .....
i think give up....i have two lovely daughter, couple real friends... but I'm scared make new or try have "something serious" in my head is all time red light if u know what i mean...
somebody feel this in same way or I'm just weird?