Hello Everyone,
Well again here i am posting...I think its cause i have found a tiny amount of space in my day lol...
Here i go then..I'm gonna keep it short, i have been in a relationship with my partner for near on 10 years...About 4 months ago i met a guy...Around the same age as me, well 2 years younger, we hit it off as friends the spark was electric...I did ignore it for a while, then started to fall for him, he felt the same, we started kind of seeing each other, but not like that, we never had sex but did stuff apart from that.
Anyway, i did genuinely have feelings for him, he did for me as well. All too soon i came to my senses and ended it, i also went abroad for a week strait after i did this. He was hurt, i was hurt my head was in bits. When i came back i did see him a couple of times in passing, then i met him to talk and we had a huge argument in the street, he walked away from me when i was crying, the worst part was he never looked back. That hurt, a lot.
Well, we patched things up and stayed friends, he knows the way i feel for him, he felt the same but we both know it could never work, and would tear lives apart and hurt so many people.
So why am i posting this? We always said that we would stay in touch, i said i would always be there for him as his friend and help him if he ever needed it. I haven't heard from him in nearly a month, phone off and not been on fb, nobody knows where he is and nobody has heard from him. I was worried at first and just wanted to know that he was OK, then saw a message posted by his dad on fb, saying for him to get in touch and if anyone knows his whereabouts. I am worried about him as he did have some trouble with some people when i last spoke to him.
The thing is...I cant get him off my mind, i miss him sooo much even as my friend. I love my partner dearly and know that if it ever got out he would be devastated. But i don't know why i feel this way...
How do i mend a broken heart when it should never have been broken in the first place?
Love N' Hugz.
Mak.
xxxxxx