Thank you ladies.

You have no idea how much better you made me feel. I just felt that he may be angry, as he gave me a comfortable sum to get me out of trouble. The reality is, I was in more trouble than i thought, so that money just went to covering my debts. I was worried it looked like I squandered it, when I hadnt.

But I guess what hurts the most is that I have been abandoned by most people in my life- both of my parents, family and some friends recently too. I guess I just feel the same way again with him. He had been so communicative/helpful that I didnt think he would say "ask me for help when you need it" and then just not reply. I wouldnt have minded if he had said " Actually i dont want to see you again, I think we should call it a day" ....

...I just do not understand why someone would just not reply. After that fact that we spoke to each other more or less everyday for a period of months. But whatever, Ive let it go now. And the only person I will ever trust or accept money off again is myself.

If I had the means to right now, I would pay it all back. I reckon I could earn that in a couple of weeks. So thats what Im going to do, pay him back when I can. Not tell him Im going to, just do it.

Thank you ladies.

You have no idea how much better you made me feel. I just felt that he may be angry, as he gave me a comfortable sum to get me out of trouble. The reality is, I was in more trouble than i thought, so that money just went to covering my debts. I was worried it looked like I squandered it, when I hadnt.

But I guess what hurts the most is that I have been abandoned by most people in my life- both of my parents, family and some friends recently too. I guess I just feel the same way again with him. He had been so communicative/helpful that I didnt think he would say "ask me for help when you need it" and then just not reply. I wouldnt have minded if he had said " Actually i dont want to see you again, I think we should call it a day" ....

...I just do not understand why someone would just not reply. After that fact that we spoke to each other more or less everyday for a period of months. But whatever, Ive let it go now. And the only person I will ever trust or accept money off again is myself.

If I had the means to right now, I would pay it all back. I reckon I could earn that in a couple of weeks. So thats what Im going to do, pay him back when I can. Not tell him Im going to, just do it.

Hi Vivian,

Firstly do not blame yourself and secondly do not pay him the money back, if you tally up all the time you spent with him he probably owes you some.  If a man wants to treat you like a wg then you treat him like a client.

There is one rule in life never rely on anybody except yourself and never trust anybody except yourself.

As for being alone you can be alone in a relationship too, as someone who was very much in your position too.  I can give you this bit of advice, do not contact him, put your feelings aside if he contacts you you ignore him, you write him out of your life.  He has no place in it, men like him will always contact you again.  Trust me. Anything that you have of his in your apartment, get rid of, emails, text messages, cards, love notes, photos everything.

Get to enjoy being on your own and you have to realise that you do not need a man in your life to be happy you create your own happiness. Concentrate on what is important to you right now and set yourself a goal for the end of the year.  We all want to be loved, we all want a man to adore us but in reality it does not work that way unless you want a stalker lol

You are your priority do not worry about someone who could not give a damn about your well being.

xx

Well done in getting through your exams.  That is no mean feat (sp?). 

Like I said in my previous post, when we are not running on full pelt we sometimes make mistakes in judgement.  It happens.

What probably took over in your head was the romantic.  Many wouldnt believe I have a romantic side as I can be very clinical in my views and thoughts.  This is simply the survival instinct in me coming in,  I do have a romantic side (doesnt come out too often now but still comes out) but most (maybe not all of us) like to think that there is someone out there that might come to love us.  Sadly most of the time in this occupation the guys are fantasists or down right con artists.  Im not sure which one your guy falls in to but when they realise how much it takes to "keep us" the fantasy just fades into insignificance.

Im sure things will now pick up for you now that your exams are over.  Onwards and upwards.  Good luck in the coming months for you. xx

Your not the first woman to get involved with a client and believe his crap and you wont be the last.  Ive heard it can work out but its rare.  Anyway I hope you dont pay this dude back..he doesnt deserve it.  Get on with your studies and work and move on
NB