How do you keep calm when you first meet a new client? Are you thinking about whether he might attack you? Or am I just being paranoid?
I think you are wise to keep a level of paranoia with clients
as potentially your life may be on the line.
As to what I'm thinking?
It goes along the lines of:
"Will you be the one to snuff out my life"but that is not healthy, nor particularly common among other escorts.
What I would say, and I suspect others here will empathise.
A new client is an unknown.
But conversely, a regular can be a danger too. You might relax your guard.
Or more likely, they may have got comfortable in a subsequent visit
to the point where they may be prepared to push boundaries in whatever way they want to try.
This is a little unfair as a huge % {99.8%} are lovely men who would never do anything bad to me.
But in this high risk environment I am in.
The closest analogy for me is ice skating {not that I do actually ice skate, well not for years
}
Till the client leaves, I am balancing on ice skates,
hugely aware of the risks of a fall. I never fully relax till they leave and my front door is locked.