Plus I’m booking on for 10 hours a day 5-6 days a week whereas before I would work 3-4 days for 3-4 hours and make over double what I make now, but it’s the lack of routine and the mind aching imprisonment that is like torture now. There’s no life of luxury involved in this job for me anymore but more life of mind ache and gritting teeth whilst being confined to four walls. When I’m booked on I can’t mentally focus on anything like read, watch tv, odd jobs I need to do because my mind is so tied to the phone, I know that’s probably my own neuro health issues in some way but every day really is like torture now. I’m finding my way out of this job and like others have said, I will use it for extra money but I can not be at one with myself anymore being under this vulnerability of the layout of our days now