Yeah it makes sense. I am probably more cynical now, or maybe not cynical but definitely have a different perspective. I've only been back at this work for about 6 months, but for a number of reasons it's quite a different experience this time. I don't know, like others said in other thread, taking care of yourself is very important. Too much everything seems shit, you need time to be totally yourself and truly enjoy things and sort of nourish your heart and soul. Sorry if that sounds a bit too airy fairy! I think it's true though.
I do believe that you can find real, true, totally honest relationships that aren't about control. They are about respect and love and sharing things in life. I, sadly, don't think that's the norm, but it does exist. I sort of think we might be more open to those kind of relationships because you become good at picking up on the vibe of a man x