sometimes i just wish i could meet a nice male escort haha can someone start up an escort dating site please? hehehe 

That would be great! Any sex workers (porn etc) I've read/watched things with male porn stars saying they struggle too to find women who accept their work

I wouldn't know how to meet someone.. I'm pretty isolated, working from home, so the only guys I meet are clients..
Apart from that, I don't think there's many guys out there in my age-range (say between 30-45), who are single, not divorced with
10 kids (wouldn't mind that at all though lol), or come with a lot of baggage, like me.. 
Sometimes I think, who the f*** would want me, because of my chequered past, the job I do, and a lot of other things I'd rather not go into..
I hate the thought of being single for the rest of my life, but it's a pretty big possibility..

Hiya Siorse,

In reference to your fear of men being put off by your past, just remember, you can tell them as much or as little as you choose, it's your call. It's the past and not really any of their concern as it's your business unless you choose to tell them. Have you ever tried internet dating on a decent site? xx

I wouldn't know how to meet someone.. I'm pretty isolated, working from home, so the only guys I meet are clients..
Apart from that, I don't think there's many guys out there in my age-range (say between 30-45), who are single, not divorced with
10 kids (wouldn't mind that at all though lol), or come with a lot of baggage, like me.. 
Sometimes I think, who the f*** would want me, because of my chequered past, the job I do, and a lot of other things I'd rather not go into..
I hate the thought of being single for the rest of my life, but it's a pretty big possibility..

I am sure the right man is out there for you.  Many of us have a past that we are either not proud of or felt we were making the right choice at that time even if it is not a choice we would make now.  Your past makes you the person you are today.  As for men, there are plenty of middle age single or divorced guys out there and normally by that age they have learned to not judge someone on what they have done but on what they do as they too will have made mistakes.  I have found most dating sites are just there for men who want sex but there are some sites where you can meet single people such as local sites that offer nights out to get to know new friends which is normally great for meeting people new to the area or who have just had a life change and have found themselves not really knowing anyone.  People go to these just to meet new people and plenty of men go along to them so perhaps try that. 
I met my partner online on a animal rescue forum and we met up to discuss treatments for mange lol.  It went from there and we have an honest relationship where he knows everything about me and I about him and he doesn't judge me even for doing this job as he is mature enough to realise this is just work and not who I am.
Don't ever give up on finding the right man as it is possible to meet him and for him to not care about your past or about your job and for him to support you emotionally when needed as well as not expecting sex all the time or to live off your money.  There are still some good guys about

The trouble with single men is that the longer they have been single the more on the fence they are and evasive about dating skills.  So a man who has been on his own a long time may not keep in touch well in between dates.  Also the more mature they are the more set in their ways they are it would seem.  Guess it depends how old they actually are.

They feel hard work then - when they ignore you I mean.

Perhaps it is better to just date ones who can not only cope with our job but also to pitch for ones who have only been single say a year or two or a few years only.  Just thinking out loud here!

The trouble with single men is that the longer they have been single the more on the fence they are and evasive about dating skills.  So a man who has been on his own a long time may not keep in touch well in between dates.  Also the more mature they are the more set in their ways they are it would seem.  Guess it depends how old they actually are.

They feel hard work then - when they ignore you I mean.

Perhaps it is better to just date ones who can not only cope with our job but also to pitch for ones who have only been single say a year or two or a few years only.  Just thinking out loud here!

I agree. I think once they have been single for more than a couple of years they become a dead loss. I'm very suspicious of men who jump out of one relationship and straight into another, but when they have been on their own for a long time they become even more selfish and stuck in their ways.

Having a bf would be good while escorting but now don't think too much about. It isn't high on my list any more. But if it happens.

I met my fianc? on Tinder!  Flourishing doesn't even come close! 

They are out there as many of us can testify!