Oh dear, what a waste of time. One thing I hate is dishonesty in a man. I'm very honest and I think certain things you mentioned would have put up red flags for me. The phone thing being one huge one. This is the main issue with men, they want to have it all. I'm convinced they are hard wired to want to see many women. But what if guys are just pre-programmed to spread themselves around? Is it then stupid to try n change what can't be changed? How many men are monogamous these days? Honestly I don't know what evolution was thinking of when men and women were pieced together cos we are like totally opposing species. And coupling is hard enough as it is!

I've told my story before on another thread but I met my husband when he was assigned as my driver at one of my agencies a few years ago. Once I had established he had no sexual interest in escorts (he turned down loads of girls when he drove two of us, they used to embarrass themselves by propositioning him all the time, his answer was always "I'm just here for the money") I allowed myself to realise how attracted to him I was.

Long story short. We've now been together 4 years and married for 2, we still work and he's still my driver (with a side-gig of his own so there is no male inferiority complex or only surviving off of one income) but now work indie no more agencies. I wouldn't say life is easy but he understands the job in a way no other guy I've met could and he realises I'm only doing it for the money. I thank whoever brought him into my life every day because really I get the best of both worlds: earn a fortune doing a job I think I'm good at and a loving husband to come home and cuddle up in bed with.

I agree with Fluffy Bunny though he came along at a time that I wasn't even looking for a man, I was not long out of an extremely bad relationship and was just focussing on work, staying home and avoiding social contact wherever possible. Then I meet my then future hubby at work of all places, if it's meant to be it's obviously meant to be! I don't think love is something you can go looking for it just appears without you even realising it.

It scares me too. I'm 26 so I know to some it's laughable, but with some of my issues (anxiety/panic , that seems a daft word to use as it feels so much more than that, and really affects every single day of my life) and my lifestyle etc i don't think I'll ever find relationships as easy as many 26yr olds, so I do worry about it. But you can't look for someone else to make you happy can you, I think even though as women we've come so far, we still haven't shook off the need for a partner, and the willingness to sacrifice and forgive. ...I may just be speaking for myself here

I tell him about the strange clients fetishes/dinners etc, but never talk about sex- although he knows.
So far it's going okay. But we're just taking each day as it comes.

It is possible to have a relationship, and for the guy to know what you do. But I will say from experience that it is a bad idea to mention any of the detail. It winds them up in ways you can't imagine, and their imagination can run riot and throw it back at you. A perfectly ordinary boring booking can turn into a hot sexually charged sweaty orgy in someone else's mind, and it's no good trying to explain either. I don't even say how long bookings lasted or how many there were if I can help it.

When I first started this job, only about a year ago, I felt like I didn't need anyone in my life b/c I was going on the "high" of the money, manipulating men, being told you're gorgeous and a sex goddess all day, etc.  And then a few months ago I really started getting lonely and depressed, getting fed up with all the crazy sex and zero intimacy, and missing being able to be the real me with someone who made me feel valued without the makeup and heels and "Chloe" persona.  I am also the kind of person who can date a lot and rarely get past the first or second date, most men just don't hold my interest or have much to add to my life.  I ended up messaging a man I dated a year ago for a few months.  We broke up b/c there was no future, we both had plans to move, he is deathly allergic to my beloved pets...but we both really, really enjoyed each others company.  Turns out neither of us moved and now we are hanging out without the pressure of thinking about the future, knowing it probably can't last but just being happy with what it is right now.  And it's made the biggest difference, just being able to fall asleep in someone's arms, going over and knowing I don't have to do anything but lie there and watch a movie with him or read our separate books in bed together.  Don't get me wrong, the sex is great but sometimes with this job the last thing I want is more sex at the end of the day.  He doesn't know what I do yet- I have never told anyone as selling/buying sex is illegal where I live so I'm very careful.  I'm not his girlfriend and he's not my boyfriend, but we have a connection and we both fill a need in each others' life.  I can't imagine meeting someone who was ok with my  line of work in the US (we are a bunch of uptight prudes when it comes to sex  ) and in this current arrangement I don't feel the guilt of lying about work or misleading him since we both know it's just for now and we have agreed that there is no pressure at all to be monogamous (don't ask don't tell haha).  It works really well with this job to have someone in my life but still not have to answer to anyone, or be the whole world for someone.

I don't want to end up alone and I think it's natural to get scared about getting older and being alone.  But I decided to try to live more in the present, be thankful for what I have or can create today, and not worry so much about labels.  Last year before I started escorting I wasn't ok with not being his one and only.  Oh, how much I've learned in a year!  Now it's the perfect situation for me and while I'd love to believe in monogamy and maybe even the sanctity of marriage my mind has been opened to alternative relationships and I'm comfortable knowing that I may not be the only girl he's sleeping with, and we still have a real connection and I'm still special to and respected by him :-)

I can always tell when I'm "in a good place", as I'm happy being single, don't feel the need for a partner/relationship, I'm
happy with everything I've got, live in the moment etc..
When I'm not in a good place, I'm terrified of being alone for the rest of my life, I want this, I want that, never happy with
what I've got in the present etc etc..
That might sound pure airy fairy but, for me, it's so true..!!

I had a short love affair with a guy which ended this year, I thought he was really into me, he clearly just wanted a convenience woman when it suited him, I didn't like it that he kept turning up randomly driving all the way from his home to mine (it was an hours car drive) , I didn't want to get caught out  he did not know what I do in my spare time I never tell them. like some guys are never honest and lie to me continuously so I didn't need to feel guilt about making money to pay my bills 
I feel at times lonely and am a very harsh critic of myself, I want to feel good about being single