Hi everyone I haven't posted on herd for a good few years, I watched a programme on c4 about high class escorts and the idea to post here has been stuck in my head.
Just wanted to talk a little to people who understand about the fear of being outed. I haven't worked in over 4 years, and I don't even live in the same country where I worked...but the fear is pretty constant. Not always there, but if I get a call from an unknown number I instantly panic. I thought I saw an old client in Tesco and it took about 2 hours for my heart rate to slow down.
I don't have any issues with my experiences - I can barely remember any of them. Just like a constant subconscious fear or paranoia. Any advice most welcome x

I think you have some kind of anxiety disorder and it's manifesting itself/expressing itself in this way. I don't know a lot about anxiety but I am guessing that you would benefit from approaching it from that angle.

As someone who suffers from mild GAD, I'm inclined to agree - I tend to fixate and obsess over a single perceived problem (or over multiple issues on a rotation), even if I logically know it's extremely unlikely to happen. This sounds quite similar.

Thanks guys CBT is probably the way to go. I just needed to articulate the fear to people who unserstand x