At the moment I offer a choice of either sensual massage or full service. Would love to take the plunge and just do massage. Do your escort clients now come to you for massage?
Do you get outcall massage bookings?
After I quit escorting, I lost almost all of my clients. I couldn't understand why. It was rather disheartening as even the oldest, most regular ones dropped me in a moment without a second thought.
I had a few, who wanted to try the new offering, but in most cases the sessions weren't great.
Finally I realized that it's a very different service and just not for everyone.
Clients looking for an escort have a very different mindset and needs.
What is very important for me now is that within my new boundaries I can act accordingly to what I actually feel.
As an escort I was switching off from my feelings in some way, I mean it was still pleasant but I had to dissociate this mechanical pleasure from every other aspect of myself.
I had to shut up any feelings or thoughts that would interfere with my work.
I had to focus on attuning myself to whatever they needed.
And really, clients who book an escort don't really care how you're feeling, even the nice ones (or rather hypocrytical) who say that they want you to enjoy yourself. Nope. They only want to feel better about themselves.
At the end of the day they want to use someone (or something) to have their needs met.
What a massage gives me is boundaries. I can attune to what I really feel.
I can be okay with a client touching me if I really feel that I want it.
Clients in general are respectful of my boundaries, and careful about touching me. It made a big difference in my life.
Then there are the ones on the 'idiot spectrum', who just want to use you for a wank (emphasis on 'use'...), grab etc.
When doing a massage, I also can be giving without ending up being resentful, angry and feeling used.
Coming back to your question after this lenghty intro...
I lost almost all of my escorting clients. It was brutal and I was broke and desperate for quite some time.
These days it's okay-ish. I work longer hours and for less but I'm much happier.
Can't say much about outcalls, I don't do them.