I just wondered if there is any really decent websites or books that will help a WG come to terms with what she is doing.
I have only been doing this for a few weeks but I already recognise that it is damaging to my soul. Im doing it because I need the money, but also because I have an obsession with prostitution. It has always intrigued me. I am also very self-destructive, so this occupation suits me ideally. I did take the time to do research. I read so many WG's blogs. Of course they all lie, just like all these sites lie. They all say "I had great sex with this 60 yr old ugly guy, it was so satisfying".
I totally understand that girls have to lie, because they know potential customers may be reading it. But is there anywhere that girls can actually say " I fucked this gross guy, he smelt of bo, i felt sick". I think that the chance to express negative experiences without fear of them being read by punters would be good.
There must be loads of girls out there that hate sucking off gross guys, and hate pretending to love the sex they are subjected to. Surely there should be somewhere where we can all express our disgust in private. Why keep up this pretence that all WG love having sex with disgustingly gross and ugly guys.
I think it is harmful to our self respect. I think it could be useful to go to a site that would help us cleanse ourselves of particulary old or ugly punters. We could put down our worst experiences and get them out of our systems.

it is part and parcel of being  wg to sleep with guys she would not do so in her private life and you very quickly learn  to look beyond the physical and find that most clients are nice, interesting guys ...................as you appear to be having difficulties I personally feel this is not the job for you either and as such to continue will not be good for you with your already self admitted need to consume several glasses of wine to have sex.

Beth
xx

Get some help, please. You're obviously doing yourself harm and you need to get out. Feeling icky because you had to avoid a client's bad breath for an hour is one thing, self-hatred is quite another. Some boards have sections which are for escorts only and there was an entire locked board for a while, we sometimes talk about the annoying and gross things clients do in there, but if you posted in one of them as you are now you'd hear just as many people as here telling you that you shouldn't be putting yourself through this.

Speak to the CAB about your financial issues, there will be alternatives.

If a sex worker's outreach project covers your area, see if they can offer you anything useful.

Get therapy. It can be difficult if you don't have the money to go private, but try. It sounds like prostitution and the need for money are not at the root of your problems, so you're going to need to deal with your own head to avoid sabotaging yourself. Talk to your doctor and see what your options are on the NHS. If that's a non-starter, there may be a low-cost clinic around for people in difficulty.

If there's some kind of habit that you need money for - alcohol, other substances, gambling, shopping - look for a support group. If it's not a substance issue you might not be able to find a real-life one, but you'll find something online at least.

i just dont share that mindset anne, and u should really not be in this at all.

hi anne,
hope you are doing well and perhaps you should follow the advice of the other posts. being a WG is more about the money; it's about really enjoying what you do; it's about feeling independent and powerful and knowing you don't need to rely on anyone but yourself to take care of yourself.

i'm curious as to why you got into the business.

kisses and a big hug.

angela

Haha, I had a pity shag fetish when I was younger, too. Unfortunately I didn't recognise it as such and ended up going out with them.