Some fantasies are forbidden. It does not mean that you are insane, just that when we are going through puberty and beyond your curiosity can know no bounds. You have to accept and learn about your sexuality, I could not comment, I believe after many years of sexual experience that some people are different, and thats all there is to it. I am keeping my spaniel under lockdown though
Keep asking, keep learning, and don't worry. It will all fall in to place soon.
For the people wondering why I haven't said a word about beastiality, consider this. In my experience, if someone is asking, they aren't doing. Yet.
I'm sorry, but the idea that what people choose to think and fantasise about should be 'forbidden' or policed in some way is the most preposterous thing I have ever heard. No-one has the right to say what can and cannot go on in other people's heads, however distasteful it may be - a person's thoughts can be the only freedom they have.
Anyone who remembers the book thread on the Off Topic board a bit ago may remember the Nancy Friday books under discussion - anyone who is in any doubt about the diversity of what we would think of as extremely taboo fantasies would do well to flick through 'Women on Top' for example, which includes full sections both on this, plus incest and yes, the odd one even concerning children. That does not indicate for one minute that any of the authors acted on these fantasies (although of course it equally doesn't indicate that they did not).
As I have already said, this subject has now been adequately covered, and everyone needs to move on.
I think hotels are a great place for newbies to start incalls - apart from the obvious plus that there are other people about which makes it safer (and in the event that something happens and you have to draw attention to yourself, getting 'found out' won't matter to you that much), you don't have to worry about things like laundry or cleaning and of course, nobody finds out where you live (or compared to renting a work flat in London, the expense probably won't be that different once you bring bills, council tax and so on into things).
There are quite a few threads on the forum about working from hotels and doing incall days - search under 'Tours' as well, since a lot of the hotel-using tips will be found there
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