Hey guys,
First of all, sorry mods if this is in the wrong section.
So I just wanted to talk some stuff out. So about 4 weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me out of the blue and we were supposed to be moving in together and basically starting a life together. I gave up escorting when we got serious, because I just didn't want to deal with the lying and secrecy, and money was ok.
I was an independent escort and had my own flat and successful business, and I would like to start again. However I have the following problems:
I do not want to get my own place right now because I'm unsure of where I want to settle down etc and don't want to be tied down to anything.
I want to start again, but I'm terrified, I put on a lot of weight recently due to a health condition, but I've been losing the weight steadily in the last couple of months but I am still not down to where I was, and due to the break up my self-esteem is at rock-bottom. I live near London and was hoping to join an agency, but I saw a few problems with doing that, namely that I don't live in London itself so couldn't provide incalls, and the fact that my parents might wonder why I was having such weird hours at my new job. And probably the fact that all of the girls look out of this world, and right now I feel there is no way on Earth I can compete. I don't want to work in my hometown as it is relatively small and i could be recognised easily.
I thought of doing a flatshare but I didn't want to lie to new housemates, and sharing with other working girls just seems to risky.
I was thinking of joining a parlour or brothel in London as another option, but I have no experience of working in one.
I'm not thinking of starting anytime soon- I need to properly recover from this break up and need to concentrate on exams, but hopefully in a few weeks I'll be able to make better decisions.
I loved my job when I had it, and it was a difficult decision to give up what I had, so I'm beating myself up about that decision in the first place.
Basically what I'm asking is how do you think I should best start working in the industry again, especially in London? Cause there just seems to be so many things to consider.
Love to you all
xx