Yes, I think you might be right regarding my investment. I can put money back into my savings, that's no problem as I don't need to put any more money into it for now.
As for the boyfriend - he wants to spend loads of time with me, like every single spare moment. I'm panicking that if I spend loads of time with him then I will miss out on work. And then when I am available to work no one wants a booking. It's so frustrating!
My boyfriends have always known, however that didn't stop me from feeling the same about work. At the end of the day all work, no personal life is not (in my opinion) healthy, even if it's just time when you are not 'on call'. Regards the actual relationship, I'm wondering how do you feel about getting close to someone?Are you trying to keep yourself at a distance. Resentment ain't good.
Finances, it can be really easy to forget how little people live off, and the gratitude for being financially sound can easily get out of perspective. My advice is clear all debt, pay off credit cards and household bills, and have enough to last up to six months in case of illness.