This is my first post so hello everyone. Little bit of my story first before I go on the subject.
I've been working as a prossie before but due to unfortunate event in my life I had to quit work.
What happened? The owner of small studio I was renting throwed me out and I lost everything I had. He came to my door and I had on only dress and sandals and As I was standing in these clothes I had to in a minute leave the place and become homeless. I am from Poland and the situation took place in Belgium.
It was 2019. Now is end of 2024. My body changed. Due to the stress I endured I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I'm taking medications. I couldn't count on my family.
My body has hanging skin, I am about 300lbs. I have pretty hair and I can use make up to look attractive. My legs has hanging skin too. Even my vagina. I've been consuming gigantic amount of food to bare with the loss of m clients at large, cause the physical things can be bought again. But even with the looks I have I love this job too much to let it go. I like the intimacy and I feel still attractive. My plan is to loose some weight and come back to Belgium and work again. I love this line of job. It gives my freedom, space, feeling of sexual expression and more.
The question which keeps knocking to my mind: is prostitution about looks? Since I remember I had many clients who wanted to be accepted, have company, be with somebody happy... How do you see the sphere of looks, do you thing that looks and the end matter much, how do you preceive ageing, don't you think that in many cases the clients come to get "that" feeling? Can somebody be too ugly for work, I am smart person and it sound a bit stupid, I know from my experince, when being nice, friendly, love giving, etc. was the main reason I had regulars and clients didn't give a bit about my looks. What do you take from that?