Hey guys,

First of all, sorry mods if this is in the wrong section.

So I just wanted to talk some stuff out. So about 4 weeks ago my boyfriend broke up with me out of the blue and we were supposed to be moving in together and basically starting a life together. I gave up escorting when we got serious, because I just didn't want to deal with the lying and secrecy, and money was ok.

I was an independent escort and had my own flat and successful business, and I would like to start again. However I have the following problems:

I do not want to get my own place right now because I'm unsure of where I want to settle down etc and don't want to be tied down to anything.
I want to start again, but I'm terrified, I put on a lot of weight recently due to a health condition, but I've been losing the weight steadily  in the last couple of months but I am still not down to where I was, and due to the break up my self-esteem is at rock-bottom. I live near London and was hoping to join an agency, but I saw a few problems with doing that, namely that I don't live in London itself so couldn't provide incalls, and the fact that my parents might wonder why I was having such weird hours at my new job. And probably the fact that all of the girls look out of this world, and right now I feel there is no way on Earth I can compete. I don't want to work in my hometown as it is relatively small and i could be recognised easily.

I thought of doing a flatshare but I didn't want to lie to new housemates, and sharing with other working girls just seems to risky.

I was thinking of joining a parlour or brothel in London as another option, but I have no experience of working in one.

I'm not thinking of starting anytime soon- I need to properly recover from this break up and need to concentrate on exams, but hopefully in a few weeks I'll be able to make better decisions.

I loved my job when I had it, and it was a difficult decision to give up what I had, so I'm beating myself up about that decision in the first place.

Basically what I'm asking is how do you think I should best start working in the industry again, especially in London? Cause there just seems to be so many things to consider.

Love to you all

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Thanks BananaMuffin. I know I'm not in the best place emotionally, in fact I'm in a pretty shitty place, and I know that I need to take care of myself right now and everything else will come in time. It's so frustrating for me as I'm usually such a strong person, but this guy has really worn me down over time.

This job is one of the things I missed the most when I was in this relationship, and I want to jump back in with both feet because it will make me feel better. But what with my emotional state, body issues and exams, I'm just not ready. I like to make plans to come back to work though because it gives me hope and something to aim for.

Thank You for the offer of support bananamuffin, I'm sure I'll take you up on it

If anyone else has anything else to add about starting in London in my situation please reply

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