Thank you very much! I'm glad I have a place to ask these sorts of questions.
There are many people I admire here, it's nice to see such strong chicks.
"what do you really love about the job?"
Having time off to do other things especially as I am going to be in full time education, good pay, sitting on my bottom drinking and wine and chatting!
I have just got on top of my debts after 2 years of feeling like I would never get out, or knowing I would but not knowing how.
"what are your motives of doing it?"
It seemed like a fun way to make money, 'seemed' cus like any job it gets boring!
"what is it you are not happy about it at the moment?"
Being close to people I dont find attractive physically or mentally. I am finding it hard to step back from the fact not everyone will be attractive to me, and so they shouldn't, and not everyone will be my kinda person. How do I deal with that when I have to get so close to them, kissing for example. I tend to try to connect with people and I know this is something clients value and how I feel job satisfaction but what if they are not the kinda person you want to connect with?
I'm thinking to much I'm sure! I work in health care and have no issue doing very intimate things with people which some people would walk away from disgusted with the image burned in their brain! I must have found a way to deal with the not so nice things.
I think I have some doubts weather what Im doing is providing an essential service...I think I will do some reading about WGs in history
"also what is it that is missing (that could be another area or another service you can offer) some kind of variety.... i think those times are times where we can grow professionally as personally"
I had hoped I would have more women interested, I did get a booking form a couple yesterday so things are looking up.
I would like to have more of a balance and be more domme but I find it hard work stepping out of my submissive comfort zone, i think I will get to it but not yet, I'm still peeking from behind the curtain!
What medea said about the social acceptance matters to me, no one is going to give me a medal for this and silly as it is I'm the kind of person that likes to do things that help people and that people say "thanks, you have been very helpful, how would have managed without you"! It's how I feel important
I think I feel a little guilt or shame for doing something (some would say pretty simple) for lots of money that (some would say) is an unnecessary luxury...whats wrong with that? I dunno! I keep asking my silly brain!
I think going back to uni and wearing the badge of someone who is known for helping, being something I can tell my mum about etc will help.