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Author Topic: Does anyone else feel like they have two personalities - work and non work?  (Read 1078 times)

courtney lee

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I was recently off work for a good while with glandular fever then a chest infection. Being at home alone was like a holiday, loved it apart from being ill. Got all the cleaning done, had a clear out of stuff, watched crap on tv, and slept. Even started feeding the birds lol  ;D   Then really needed to go back to work, logged onto AW and was immediately faced with the vulagr photos and disgusting text and discriptions. Thought omg ewww.   But I do need to work for money, and I enjoy chatting with the men too. I just feel like theres two me's. The more serious quiet side who would probably do well in a research job, and the tarty me who loves to make money and likes the naughty side of life.  I go out as 32 but Im older (I do look younger than my age) and wondering what I'll do when I retire from this. My son is off to uni this year so I'll be alone and losing some money as tax credits and child benefit for him will stop. Maybe just having a bad day  ???

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I would imagine most people have two personalities while they do this job.
That's one of the reasons we use a different name, personally for me this means I can get into 'name' personality which helps when I don't really want to work that day.
As soon as the sexy underwear and heels go on then I slip into 'name' mode and feel mentally a lot more positive and strong minded.


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Yes haha. Sometimes I feel like I don't know what one to use. It's like sometimes I get confused, makes it a little bit hard to blend. Ah well. I've also probably recently become more of an asshole which I kind of think is a good thing. People would never believe it but I do think escorting helps you assert better boundaries, become better readers of people, stuff like that. :D
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I would imagine most people have two personalities while they do this job.
That's one of the reasons we use a different name, personally for me this means I can get into 'name' personality which helps when I don't really want to work that day.
As soon as the sexy underwear and heels go on then I slip into 'name' mode and feel mentally a lot more positive and strong minded.

This is me too but I imagine it applies to many if not most sp's. Two sides or personalities definitely, in many aspects. I take a final look at my face in the mirror before I answer my door to a client and I see a different woman to the one half an hour earlier and I don't mean the make-up.

While super confident in the work and assertive when I need to be I do find it takes my inner strength to hold back on some comments I may want to make with awkward or difficult clients whereas in my civvy life I speak as I want to and that, I suppose, is the real me.

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Completely! I've recently more to extremly part-time escorting  and I've noticed the massive divide between work me and me me. I've been doing this so long I don't think until now I noticed how extremely different. Recently realised I don't really like the person I become when I work and getting ready had become almost ritualistic with routine of getting ready, music etc to transform my personality and looks. I am concerned recently.
 
I think we all have seperate work personas and seriously doubt many of us would do overly well as our real selfs. (Not because we arent all fabulous!  just because the real me would want a cuppa mid way through, isnt overly into sex and would talk or debate nonstop in my comfy pants). I also think the 2 personas helps with a mental divide that we both want and need for both our own wellbeing and to stop clients/work invading our real lives and thoughts and is a healthy thing to have.
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I think every working person has to put part of themselves on hold when they go to work - they become the professionals they were hired to be. Our job just pushes that divide so much further apart from our real selves.

I am super confident in work. Out of work, still confident but less so. I find myself biting my nails or diverting eye contact with people when I am unsure or nervous. In work, I can't show any nerves at all. I'd like more of "work me" into my "personal me" actually!

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loving your post and You have a great point treetop, however... do keep in mind that ANY job,  be it teacher, plumber, secretary or CEO of general motors involves alienation and "playing a rol". Hooker is no different.  I believe the sucessful hooker has perfectly defined the lines were her rol ends and her real persona starts.
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courtney lee

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Very valid points. I wish the outside world realised what intelligent, articulate ladies do this work rather than the stereotypes...  Think because Im only working one day a week at the min (I need to remedy that situation) the real me is coming back, I suddenly feel older too and more 'my age'.  The men would have a shock if we went in the room as 'us' lol, comfy pjs and a cuppa; Treetop thats so funny but true  ;D ;D  Ana30, yes I hadn't thought, but other jobs have roles to play also, and I imagine the police, nurses and teachers have to keep their mouths shut more often than not... its just hard that most of us cant talk about our stresses.

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do keep in mind that ANY job,  be it teacher, plumber, secretary or CEO of general motors involves alienation and "playing a rol". Hooker is no different. 

I agree. I have worked for at least 2 different well-known chain stores in the past, and I can assure you, my shop-floor persona wasn't the person who went home to feed the kids, pay the rent, sleep with the partner, watch rubbish TV, etc etc!

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Yes haha. Sometimes I feel like I don't know what one to use. It's like sometimes I get confused, makes it a little bit hard to blend. Ah well. I've also probably recently become more of an asshole which I kind of think is a good thing. People would never believe it but I do think escorting helps you assert better boundaries, become better readers of people, stuff like that. :D
Yes agree with that. I assert boundaries outside of work and get mighty pissed off if anyone tries to cross those boundaries.

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I definitely feel like I have 2 personalities (work and non work)!! Some of the people in my life would be so shocked if they knew exactly what I got up to..  ;D That's definitely not a bad thing though - we are selling a fantasy after all!  :) and I agree with what's been said about escorting helping me be tougher with boundaries!! That was something I needed to improve anyway, do even better! Xx

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I prefer my work persona , less stressed usually more talkative friendly .
My civvy persona is stressed unhappy

courtney lee

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snap, sugar x