I was recently off work for a good while with glandular fever then a chest infection. Being at home alone was like a holiday, loved it apart from being ill. Got all the cleaning done, had a clear out of stuff, watched crap on tv, and slept. Even started feeding the birds lol     Then really needed to go back to work, logged onto AW and was immediately faced with the vulagr photos and disgusting text and discriptions. Thought omg ewww.   But I do need to work for money, and I enjoy chatting with the men too. I just feel like theres two me's. The more serious quiet side who would probably do well in a research job, and the tarty me who loves to make money and likes the naughty side of life.  I go out as 32 but Im older (I do look younger than my age) and wondering what I'll do when I retire from this. My son is off to uni this year so I'll be alone and losing some money as tax credits and child benefit for him will stop. Maybe just having a bad day 

Yes haha. Sometimes I feel like I don't know what one to use. It's like sometimes I get confused, makes it a little bit hard to blend. Ah well. I've also probably recently become more of an asshole which I kind of think is a good thing. People would never believe it but I do think escorting helps you assert better boundaries, become better readers of people, stuff like that.

Completely! I've recently more to extremly part-time escorting  and I've noticed the massive divide between work me and me me. I've been doing this so long I don't think until now I noticed how extremely different. Recently realised I don't really like the person I become when I work and getting ready had become almost ritualistic with routine of getting ready, music etc to transform my personality and looks. I am concerned recently.
 
I think we all have seperate work personas and seriously doubt many of us would do overly well as our real selfs. (Not because we arent all fabulous!  just because the real me would want a cuppa mid way through, isnt overly into sex and would talk or debate nonstop in my comfy pants). I also think the 2 personas helps with a mental divide that we both want and need for both our own wellbeing and to stop clients/work invading our real lives and thoughts and is a healthy thing to have.

loving your post and You have a great point treetop, however... do keep in mind that ANY job,  be it teacher, plumber, secretary or CEO of general motors involves alienation and "playing a rol". Hooker is no different.  I believe the sucessful hooker has perfectly defined the lines were her rol ends and her real persona starts.

do keep in mind that ANY job,  be it teacher, plumber, secretary or CEO of general motors involves alienation and "playing a rol". Hooker is no different. 

I agree. I have worked for at least 2 different well-known chain stores in the past, and I can assure you, my shop-floor persona wasn't the person who went home to feed the kids, pay the rent, sleep with the partner, watch rubbish TV, etc etc!

I definitely feel like I have 2 personalities (work and non work)!! Some of the people in my life would be so shocked if they knew exactly what I got up to..  That's definitely not a bad thing though - we are selling a fantasy after all!  and I agree with what's been said about escorting helping me be tougher with boundaries!! That was something I needed to improve anyway, do even better! Xx

snap, sugar x