I don't know were to start.. I use to use this site when I use to escort back in 2010 using AW... I gave up due to illness and last year set up a very similar profile name and directed old clients to my new profile... things were different.. eg I did not have an apartment.  I maybe saw one or two clients a month... hardly any... I met one chap and we started a relationship... cutting a long story short we dated and he was flaky and not my future.... then I met a guy 3 weeks ago... for the first time ever I thought I had met someone special that would treat me right out of escort mode.  I did wonder about telling him about my past as I felt there was mileage in our relationship... but it was earlly days etc... and because of the past relationships and experiences I had had he had always said my past is my past... so that played with me and I wondered if it was relevant.  Today my conservatory was leaking and he said he would call a friend... 5 mins later I got a txt asking how many men I had slept with... I said pardon... and of course I instanly thought shit... he must know... he left work early and arrived just after I picked up my little girl... he showed me the txts between him and his friend exchanged... his friend use to be a client to my old business so knows me quite well.. the company he works for is not far from my home... the implications being they drive past me when i walk my daughter to school... double cringe.. his reply when my b/f asked could he sort my conservatory out was are you into escorts now.. I read all the txts... back n forth whilst he was asking for info... when he got here he asked me if it true.. I said yes... and he was even more shocked I think... he was hoping for a no... I knew i couldn't lie.  I feel sick, not from being found out, more from the likely loss but I guess I am not the only one this has happened to... part of me wants to run... shut him out.  When he left, he pecked me on the cheek.  He also included in our chat that we have all done things in our past.  I have no idea what to do, do I call him? Do I leave him?  My head is mashed, this is the first man in years that I felt I connected with on every level....trust too.  I miss him when I am not with him... I love his cuddles... love receiving his messages.. love or should I say was loving the thought of a future.  I have even started to look him in the eye whilst making love... hugging was an issue for me too... but I was getting better.  He sometimes gently held my hand/arm to  places mine around him.  In the escort world... all that fake stuff was easy for me.. the real world it wasn't.  It meant sooo much more.

Of course, I am feeling all vunerable and scared.  I have noone to talk to.  I shut everyone out of my life when I escorted, the people that are in my life now don't know.  I have one male friend that knows, he is an ex boyfriend from 20 yrs ago that I use to check in and out with for appts, other than him.. it was me and me. 

I don't know why I am here or what I expect. Gutted... and feel sick.. I may loose him and it appears that a local business of men know... gossip etc. 

I'm sorry, hun, that's really rough...

I agree with what BJC said, though... he didn't react badly, I think he's just surprised. It sounds like he's just gonna need some time to adjust to it. I would definitely give him time and try not to worry too much... If he was going to be angry at you for escorting, he probably would have flipped out when his friend told him. You could try texting him and offering to talk with him about it, and explaining that you didn't mean to hide it from him. If he's the one for you, he'll understand...

Good luck, I'm sorry you got outed this way

Thank you.. i needed to hear someone.. talk to someone... he has been messaging me... and I have been replying.... I called and he was in the pub... since he could not hear me I put the phone down.. I didn't know what to say anyway.  I am feeling more level headed at the mo as whoever I decide to have in my life for the long run will need to know anyway... so whether it is him or someone else.. what will be will be... so now he knows it is up to him.  I am not sure I want to answer all his questions if he does not think there is a future.... what is the point in him knowing my old life... that i had an apartment etc.

He did ask why I did it in the town I was living... my answer sounded daft I think... I did not see the point in travelling 30 miles to where I was not known.. people (men) travel anyway... so to me there was alway a risk... maybe you ladies travel out of your area... i didn't, maybe I was stupid.. it worked for me... I had a daughter and a home... I did not have time to travel as I did not work whole days... maybe 1 or 2 clients when i was free... maybe 2/3 days a week... no eves and no weekends.. my priority was my daughter... guess I am saying to you what I need to say to him.. but feeling scared to share with somone that may already be gone.. what is the point.  Makes me want to escort and run away into it again... not sure that is the way forward.  When i met him I was intending anyone... I had thought it was not for me to meet someone... meeting him was an accident...  a lovely one... I had looked to meet somoene last year but gave up....  as they saying goes.. you find the right one when your not looking...  if it is meant to be it will be huh.

Thanks ladies.
x

I think he should read what you have wrote here. And I really hope he is a keeper
Stay strong hunny xxx