I feel exactly the same thing hun, I've been trying to stop escorting since the end of February this year and I just keep going back. I met a bloke who gave me a job in the bar, we ended up seeing eachother until a punter came in and told everybody I was an escort (some people are just that shit) even though I had given up at the time so he got rid of me, he had to get rid of me to "protect his business" and even after that he gave me a second chance for our relationship to work I'm still escorting behind his back. I've been severely depressed because of people making me feel bad about being a escort, but now I've decided to go back and stop trying to be somebody i'm not. Reality was horrible, it's not for me escorting is, I love the buzz of this job! It's not even about the sex and the money half the time, it's the buzz, I feel independent! Unlike the alternative which was sitting around with no money constantly looking for a job.
After my experience I think a lot of the problems WGs have when discontinuing escorting is going back to having a normal job with normal pay, no excitement, I feel like i've got nothing in common with a lot of girls who aren't WGs, and i'm a little too open sometimes about being an escort and alot of people i've met try and make me feel like i'm some sort of dirty skank (again, some people are are just shit). My advice would be don't be so hard on yourself if you are trying to quit, for me it was life changing and I found out not in a good way but space away from escorting made me realise that it wasn't right for me to quit but everybody is different, I might want to quit again later but for now i'm going to do what makes me happy and thats all I can really say. Stay positive and if you need to talk PM me hun x
Topic: Addicted to Escorting (Read 5564 times)