My boyfriend, who knows what I do, has seen a lot of women I know (and know of). I've read reference to him on here (from a couple of years ago, but still weird for me). He seems ashamed about this which I prefer to him thinking it's something he can go back to tbh. I also feel insecure comparing myself to the gorgeous escorts he's seen, thinking I don't measure up at all.
I really doubt he's cheating, but it does make me very very insecure and queasy sometimes when I'm accidentally confronted with his past.
I'm sure some of you will know who he is
[possibly identifying information redacted].
Advice pls. Also when we first started seeing each other I asked if he'd seen escorts and he gave the name of one. Then from his indiscreet internet activity I realised it was more like 10-15 (5 of whom I know

). I feel paranoid that other sex workers won't want to be friends with me because of boundaries.
I do love him immensely and plan to be with him indefinitely, everything else is near perfect.
Has anyone else been in a relationship with someone who's paid to fuck their friends? Or just me?