I'm pretty bad with money as well, thinking things will take care of themselves if I'm caught short
Of course they don't, and having learned the hard way I always make sure I've got enough to pay the
bills, there's money in my bank account when direct debits are due to come out etc..
But I'm still bad for (internet!!)shopping, buying things I really don't need, but I see, like, buy!
It's when I'm not working I really get into trouble, I was on the sick for a while and just couldn't budget at all, because I'm used to having a much bigger income..
Sometimes I worry about the future, I wont be able to escort forever, and I don't know if I'll be able to teach myself to live on a "normal" income..