Have to say...I am just so over it, foreal. There's not much to say but the fact that it has more to do than with escorting. Since I've moved down to this state in Texas, my social life has pretty much disappeared.

Having lived in Florida, where there are alot of people from New York, I've had no trouble finding attractive guys who were on my caliber and who I actually had relationships with. The longest relationship I had was with a guy who had just moved from New York.

It seems like the gay lifestyle in most cities in the US is full of shade and 'cliques'. I thought about moving to California, a place I havent been yet...but I really dont think its better than New York. The people aren't even the same...

It doesn't help that I cant get any business here. Almost everyone who sends me a message or calls me seems to think being an escort is just some kind of joke, like a game. Its not only degrading but annoying. I can deal with them, as long as I'm also getting work at the same time! But thats not happening.

I don't believe the economy or the month of Jan. and Feb. is so bad that I have to deal with this nonsense. Its my location, and its killing me, and I want out.

I'm going to see about changing this 12 month lease into a 6 month lease so I can atleast have rental history. Thats the only thing holding me back, I'm in a lease til next January! At this rate, I doubt I'll be able to go on for that long. I'm ready to pack my shit and leave! I'm attractive, I bust my arse at the gym...yet Im here cant get any work and my dating life is just as poor. There is no reason I should be in this position