Hiya ladies and gents,

Been here about a year, thanks for all your information,  keep up the excellent work!

Feeling a bit stressed.

I've been  a care working  for a temp agency for 10 years,  and love the various people i care for, just hate bitchy staff, and control freak managers with issues.

In Sept 2010 , i got a contract to work ongoing 5 days a week , again , i love  the  people i care for , and have made friends with  2 other staff members .
Contracts are mostly easy to find in my field  , but the monies so poor , it  doesn't  cover my out goings, and i work very long hours.

when i was living at my mothers home ,i  worked hard and managed to get 2 properties, it was easier back then.

I had to move out of my mother's home , so moved  in to one of the  properties, and soon i discovered , wow, i really don't earn that much lol.
 Got a tenant,  but then had problems with the other tenants , in the other property.
 So for a stage was trying to pay two mortgages, then stuff like the boiler stop working, floods, leaks, etc etc.

I  then borrowed , which didn't really resolve much , i just got deeper and deeper into debt.

2 years later i still have  a lot of debts, presently living in a small studio, and have rented out the other properties.

 nearly lost one property, but I'm  holding on in there , as if i sell  i make nothing, couldn't even pay off any debts.
 I've made contact with most of my borrowers, and have agreed a payment plan.


I don't splash out on myself at all , i  just buy the things i need,  it feels so depressing driving to work , hoping and praying the petrol doesn't run out, then explaining to work mates that i don't really feel like joining them out for a coffee at lunch times.
I get home , and I'm worn out, spend the weekend preparing for the next week at work , or trying to resolve tenants  issues on a shoe string budget.

Anyway around  early December, i just felt , f.....k  it .

 I have always have wanted to work for myself , not escorting, but in my trained profession  i knew/know ,it  was never gonna happen if i maintain making peanuts .  I worked out i  need to save 6'000 to achieve this .

So planned  to again get up and running as a escort. and felt that being a indi  could also provide many tools needed once i did achieve my goal of being self employed within my own field.

(I say again, because i once worked for a really good agency, which is  sadly no longer around, and once worked for my self, i only have very little experiences, but remember me checking how i  felt after bookings  , and remember feeling a  bit empowered, i enjoyed the experience ,  and was happy with the money .
However i was never consistent with escorting as i ever had a boyfriend or would get call, to escort when i had to work my day job).


Going back to  early December, So made my template , sent out adverts, checked out buddies, sorted work room, then .. ......got tonsillitis.

Was in bed for 2 weeks, lost weight ,never got sick pay, week later, then had a very heavy period for 5 days , which i sometimes suffer from, anyway return to day job.
Still felt very weak, but on the plus , my work phone was now calling non stop!



So, planned to escort work during the Christmas period , but found i couldn't take incall, due to more neighbours being at home for the holidays , plus , i didn't even no how i was gonna pay the electric key day ,to , day.. too embrassing.


Went back to work around the 7th jan,   same old broke bull sh...,  started to realised i was too worn out to escort after work, also impossible to do incalls with my nosey neigboubur  being at home in the evening.

Now Last Monday my car got towed.
 Had ?40 to get to work for the week , eat, elec ,etc etc,
I got pissed off,   phoned and told work , i had to attend to a family emergence  abroad , took ?30 to re - active one of my pay adverts.
Developed and polished my product, LOL  me!, and was ready to go ,

Since i put my template and advertise out my  phone has been going crazy with calls,  now, NO CALLS...
 
what have i done??? scared ...



I can still possible  get weekend work  with the agency, but I've left the long term contract ish.

I'm just panicking now

Had my template since November , lots of call before hand , no calls now ,  have i missed the new hot girl stage?,

I have offered incall, its a quiet block during the day , but I'm concern that, my brother use to live here, and was very poplar, I'm not and i like it that way,
but most people do know me as .... little sis.?

I live about 10Min's drive from my family ,i  come from a very close family ,which is lovely, But!...
 Anyway my brother use to pop around to collect his post, even when i wasn't here, gonna change the lock, re- direct post when i get some money, at the moment i hand delivery the post to him , and have told family members I'm working nites to put them off a bit.

Just met someone, who seems very nice, been single for 2 years, not sure if i should be entering into a relationship right now, definitely don't want to tell him my business... guess i don't even have the money to see him right now, so that out the window.

The block has 3 floors, there is no teenage hanging about or any of that, but its really not , posh, but my bedroom and bathrooms fine?,


I sorry if i've gone on a bit,  i know i should and am grateful for what i have , just had to let this out somewhere, must sound like a right nutter,  any support right now would be good, i'm just very concerned.
zarax

 

 

 

Aww im sorry  to hear your having such a difficult time at the mo,

Maybe you could go and work for an escort agency for a little bit until you get some more money behind you and until your independent work picks up. That way you don't have to worry about work ing from your flat and  you won't have to spend any outgoings, on advertising etc.

Try stay positive :-)

Take care xx

Hey Hot muffins, and Melissa x

Thanks very much for your reply.

I've worked for a 2 agencies, the first one was run really well, and received awards.
The owner was great ,  a previous escort herself very experienced and had written books  on sexual subjects.

Unfortunately their no longer around.

The second was very up market, had one job in 4 weeks, finial    they informed me i didn't have 'the  look'.
Couldn't really understand  at the time,  as the only difference between  me and the other ladies was  black  skin .

Anyway chin up and all that , yes if anyone knows of any multicultural  friendly agencies  lol, please get in touch.

Thanks again  melissax , and  Hot muffins chin up, hope things work out for you too girl x x

xw5, yep Kay ,she was great,!

Hear relaxing now , and  good for her.