me and my fiancee are splitting up . i love him dearly, but im not in love with him anymore.

we are supposed to be getting married in july. which is why i started escorting. We started off doing 3somes ect, and i progressed onto one on ones.

Anyway, past month its opened my eyes, and made me realize how crappy he talks to me, every argument its "you lazy fat cow". but then random strangers are paying ME the fat cow to sleep with them?! im getting told im stunning ect.

my confidence has grown soo much. I feel awful though, because he rang me today and told me it feels like im cheating on him, he cant fight for me when it feels iv fucked him over.

i dont know what to do, i love him and have his two children. But i cant stand the thought of not having the money and feeling so ugly, being stuck in the house doing nothing! im loving having money and spoiling my babies, and knowing no matter what i will have a roof over our heads.

Now i understand where hes coming from, but i think maybe im enjoying this abit too much, like fun/excitement. I so guilty, i should be settling down now, and being the perfect housewife.

i dont know what to do anymore!!!

Hi i know from reading previous posts youve written that things havent been great for you with him, but i see no advantage to staying with someone who is insulting you for 1 thing and Im sure youre enjoying what youre doing, why stop? would you resent him stuck at home and not doing what you wanted, but what he wants. If clients are complimenting you , do you tell him when he is insulting you ?
I hope you decide whats right for you , take care
Orchid x

I think you need to tell him how you feel - how he's important to you, but equally, he's not giving you what you need (and deserve! God, he should be the one making you feel incredible, not random strangers )

Like you stated it opened your eyes. It didnt ruin you, it saved you. I know its hard splitting up, but it sounds like he was blaming you for his insecurities and short comings ( totally not your fault btw ).

You have changed for the better in lots of ways, confidence, independence, etc if he cant handle that, then its his loss. Keep doing what makes you happy......

hey hunnies!

yes i understand, and i do think he will tell my sister. and if he did she would disown me. But she cant talk shes shagging a married man for free


My dad is quiet open he will give me "the talk/look". and my other sister knows and full supports me!and anyone else i couldnt give to flyinf fooks. iv told my two best friends and they just say be careful.

hey hunnies!

yes i understand, and i do think he will tell my sister. and if he did she would disown me. But she cant talk shes shagging a married man for free


My dad is quiet open he will give me "the talk/look". and my other sister knows and full supports me!and anyone else i couldnt give to flyinf fooks. iv told my two best friends and they just say be careful.

I would take any face pics off your profile/site, then if he DOES tell anyone, you can DENY DENY DENY the escorting and say that yes, you AND HIM *did* do some swinging, and now that you've split up it no longer matters