Thanks for you replies.
It's difficult. I know education will be worth it in the long run. I grew up with nothing but when i started escorting before being pregnant it made me greedy.
I have been trying to make changes to prepare myself for when escorting comes to an end.
For example I normally shop at m&s, waitrose and sainsburys. I've been trying to do at least half a shop at Aldi.
I buy clothes in topshop, warehouse, mi selfridge, next and river island. I've started shopping in newlook and primark again.
I have stopped doing so many activities and eating take out or in restaurants.
But I'm the kinda I see I like I buy girl. Even if I don't need it I have to have it, last month I brought a Sony touch screen laptop even though i have a good laptop and a ipad. im a full time mum to a toddler i dont get time to use all this shit. But I'm trying to get better.
I feel I will be stressed the same amount escorting or quitting.
Escorting worry is being caught out.
Quitting is not having money.
A rich man would be no good cause Im the kinda girl who likes to pay and provide for myself.
I feel like I can't win. I wish I never got into the job sometimes but it has taught me valuable life lessons. People say escorts/prositutes have no respect for themselves well in this job..I've never respected myself so much! It has made me more confident indipendant and powerful. I don't take people's bullshit and its made me very strong skinned.
If I get a part time job whilst at college and uni I would only be ?20 a week better off than on benefits, so I would loose another 16 hours on top of education and volenter work with my son. Doesn't seem worth it for ?20 a week.
I wouldn't mind the massage idea but the thing that's making me loose motivation for escorting is I can only work evenings and I am running around after my toddler so by the time he's in bed, I'm covered head to toe in food and smell like shit..I just want a bath take my makeup off and to go to bed..not see clients. I need to find job from home which I can do 'relaxing' if that makes sense.
I have looked at shoe/lingerie/tight fetishes but the money doesn't seem brilliant but maybe the little extra would help.
I also have to be careful on what I earn as it will affect the benefits I will get, if I loose certain ones I won't be able to get my college tutitions free or grants as a studying lone parent..so it probably would work better to be unemployed. I don't want the risk of dodging the tax man.