me and my fiancee are splitting up
. i love him dearly, but im not in love with him anymore.
we are supposed to be getting married in july. which is why i started escorting. We started off doing 3somes ect, and i progressed onto one on ones.
Anyway, past month its opened my eyes, and made me realize how crappy he talks to me, every argument its "you lazy fat cow". but then random strangers are paying ME the fat cow to sleep with them?! im getting told im stunning ect.
my confidence has grown soo much. I feel awful though, because he rang me today and told me it feels like im cheating on him, he cant fight for me when it feels iv fucked him over.
i dont know what to do, i love him and have his two children. But i cant stand the thought of not having the money and feeling so ugly, being stuck in the house doing nothing! im loving having money and spoiling my babies, and knowing no matter what i will have a roof over our heads.
Now i understand where hes coming from, but i think maybe im enjoying this abit too much, like fun/excitement. I so guilty, i should be settling down now, and being the perfect housewife.
i dont know what to do anymore!!!