They say confession is good for the soul so I thought it might be good to get this out in the open.

Last night I had a (semi) regular client  book a session which in all honesty I should have declined, I was feeling crap, unexpected bills, dog diagnosed with cancer, best friend got injured by a drunk driver and an exhusband being a right royal pain in the a**e!

But I accepted...

Hi 'thing' is to be tied to a bench and belted on the backside, well I did just that...way too hard, every bit of frustration toward men and the world in general was smacked into his rear end. At the end his backside was purple and I swear there was a tear in his eye (that NEVER happens). I immediately felt SOOOOO guilty and couldn't stop apologising. I still do feel guilty, I think I crossed a professional line.

Anything like that ever happen to anyone else? or just me?

Bibi is right - if he had a safe word or otherwise had options over what you were doing to him, then I wouldn't feel too bad. He may have thought it was your best session, yet. I think what you're feeling bad about is that you got emotional during a booking - you let your personal life affect your work.

Yep, he didn't use the safe word.

Anyway I'm taking the day off today. Work phone switched off.

I suppose he would have made more of a fuss if I'd gone TOO far, although he did say it was a little past his limit. Poor thing must have been wincing sitting in the car driving home, speed bumps would have been a nightmare.

Well he should have used the safe word then really.I would not feel too guilty he has a responsibility to use the safe word provided.But it maybe taught you a lesson to take some time off if you are not feeling up to it.

Don't feel guilty. Easier said than done I know but as others have said it's his responsibility to use his safeword not yours. You're not a mind reader.

I once had a client email me a few days after an appointment apologising to me for being so rough and saying he felt guilty about it and my response was there is no need to feel that way, if it had been too much for me I would have safeworded, that's up to me not you.