Last time when we had an argument  he said he hopes I will finally hate him and I will not want to see him any more...does this mean that he hopes that because now i am not interesting for him and he does not want to hear about me any more???

Sounds like it to me Alexis.    His way of saying "let me go" and get on with life.

i liked him a lot,and I thought may be if it works between us I would even stop escorting and look for another kind of job. Now I feel very disappointed,if I was looking for a fuckbuddie then he would be just the perfect guy for me,but I need something more,something different,someone who treats me well,treats me like a normal girl. It seems like this is something what I do not deserve.
Thanks for the support girls,and I know you are right in what you are saying and I should really just ignore him and forget about it,and i am trying to do so,but i miss him a lot,and the thought of not to see him any more hurts...
i know it is complicated as he has a daughter ( lost the mum in an accident) and probably he would never let someone close to his daughter like me...
I am doing the job what I am doing,actually trying to save up for studies and supporting family,it is not something what I want to do for ever,it is just the way how I am trying to ensure a better life for myself and my siblings.
I would need someone to talk to,the lonliness is killing me sometimes,but he is not interested in that,he is interested in sexual things,he told me he used to go for sex parties and such...I thought he is getting closer to me because he got tired of his lifestyle and may be he wants to change.
I was so so wrong 

It is only natural to be looking out for the signs of commitment. There are plenty other genuine men out there. My view is escorting makes it more complicated compared to a 9- 5 office job.

i know girls you are all right and i am being an idiot...
I tried to keep him away from myself,when i moved to a new place I was very confused if i should contact him (I had a new profile as well) and he found me,I thought if he found me between 4000 girls then it must be a sign (am I too romantic thinking that???) And I just couldnt resist to see him again...
It sounds so easy,just ignore and forget him,but it is much more difficult,I am truly in love
I am trying not to think of him,especially not to talk to him,it is pretty hard.
I know I must be strong and think of that he is being an asshole,an award winner asshole to be honest,love is blind,though i knew that from the beginning I will cry because of him,deep inside I always knew that it is not going to work,and I would love to be someone who he can love,but the thing is that he had decided to live the lifestyle what he does and does not matter who the hell I am...he is not going to change his mind,just because he had made a decision when he lost his wife....

In the beginning when we started to date we made our "rules", his first rule was: "we are exclusive to each other" as he can bear my job but he doesnt want me to go with someone else just for fun,and I was very happy about it

In the meanwhile he was sleeping around with escorts. So ha can have fun but you're not allowed. Nice one.

i thought he is being serious about it...where did it all go wrong

It didn't go all wrong. This guy sounds like he was confused from the very begining. The only thing that is crystal clear is that he has no intention to settle down and just wants as much pussy as he can get  (payed or not).

i know girls you are all right and i am being an idiot...
I tried to keep him away from myself,when i moved to a new place I was very confused if i should contact him (I had a new profile as well) and he found me,I thought if he found me between 4000 girls then it must be a sign (am I too romantic thinking that???) And I just couldnt resist to see him again...
It sounds so easy,just ignore and forget him,but it is much more difficult,I am truly in love
I am trying not to think of him,especially not to talk to him,it is pretty hard.
I know I must be strong and think of that he is being an asshole,an award winner asshole to be honest,love is blind,though i knew that from the beginning I will cry because of him,deep inside I always knew that it is not going to work,and I would love to be someone who he can love,but the thing is that he had decided to live the lifestyle what he does and does not matter who the hell I am...he is not going to change his mind,just because he had made a decision when he lost his wife....

It sounds like when his cock gets hard he sure knows what to do to have you running back to him. Others will only take advantage if we let them. Yes it is very easy to say you should do this and that. But only you do what you are comfortable with. It can be hard some times not letting our emotions get involved, like there is always that trigger. Time's a great healer.



 

so how do you know if a guy just want to take advantage of you or he is being serious?

He called me last night,we had a bit of chat,he said sorry because he couldn't call me all weekend,then we were chatting today.He is very nice again,and kind...I am trying to be neutral as i have no better idea,i know i could simply not answer the phone neither the chat messages,but I am still very confused about him,I think I am not really good in this relationship thing...
I had 1 serious relationship before,we were together for 4yrs,i was 21 when we broke up... now i am 23...and i really dont know how to manage it all,i am not really sure when i am being moody and when he is a bastard,as i told you our story he clearly is a bastard...
it sucks,i miss him,and i try to ignore that feeling...
i will be on holiday from saturday,maybe that helps to get over

My outlook especially clients is never to trust and just take what they say with a pinch of salt. The majority are not good leaving a few fantastic married off already. I'm so head strong when it comes to playing their game. I told myself that will be single to protect myself. Only you can decide really the out come. If you really want to be with him then do. Bearing in mind that he will carry on treating you not good. But while on to him it's blocking your true inner happiness. Some times it is better to just let go, visualize your hands letting go of him with all the bad hurt every thing. If you keep repeating the letting go Visualization for 10 seconds just enough until you feel relief. I do this with many things, it is amazing what weight has been lifted. Or write a positive list about your life, past etc that makes you feel good. Then keep referring to that every time you feel a sad emotion coming on. Now letting go for me is easy and feeling good.Feeling good is what living is all about.  A bad situation is only made from our thoughts, when really life outside is still the same. I found happiness within myself then happiness love finds you. Tempting love never works.

I would like to add yes he may be ok now until the next time his fed up. I bet his cock is twitching, remember men think with their cocks. Even a client told me this but had an idea before that. 


Feel free to Pm me any time.
 

Hope this helps you over come.

Mdxx

...And I'm not saying that there's no way a punter can't be turned into a proper relationship, it's very rare but hey, strange things happen and there's been a few cases. But definately not with  the young & handsome types. Their hormones are raging much more than the usual middle age man and they don't posses enough maturity to handle a relationship -much less with a WG-.

i meant we cant manage to meet in the next 2weeks...ooops