I know,I am being so so dumb,it is a job,a business which pays all my bills and I should ignore every kind of feeling,and to be honest I never really expected any of my clients to make me feel this way. Then once I opened the door and I was shocked,how handsome he is,I can't even describe but probably you all know that feeling when you meet someone for the very first time and you just feel like you want to know him more...
He was coming quite often,since we met for the first time he was not going to see any one else,though from his feedbacks I could clearly see that he liked to try as many girls as many he could manage.
After a while I let him overstay because that was just so good to be around him,have a chat,a laugh,once he came and I could not take the envelope,it just felt very wrong as I wanted him to be there with me.
I am being single for a while now,more than 2 yrs and started escorting in mid october,then a long break from early december til mid january. When I started again in january,he was the first who came to see me,he was looking forward to see me,as he had told me,even in my long break he did not see any one else,though he is single.
And I dont know how,the next week I was meeting him out of the bedroom,went for a coffee,a dinner,like a proper couple,and I think I fell in love. It could be a happy end if everything went right between us. As I got know him better  had to realise we are not looking for the same thing. He said he wants something what is not called relationship,he likes me but he is still just after sexual experience,he doesnt need more,but me...I need some kind of emotional support,and just emotions,something what makes it different from my job. But we are still meeting for 2-4 hours only saturday evening,and he prefers to come to mine (coffees and dinners are gone) he never stays with me for a night,just a few hours. I get less and less from him,but now I need him. We had some arguments already,stupid arguments and it clearly doesnt work between us,we want 2 very different things,he wants a non paid escort,and i want someone who behaves as a boyfriend.
I was crying a lot because I feel cheated,in the beginning he was different,seems like it was just the marketing...
When he asked me what the hell do I expect from him,he could not introduce me to his family,not even if he wanted to,for me that was hurt,and that was a wake up call as well,so now I just have no idea what do I expect from him?
He has seen 2 other girls in the last 2weeks,he said he just left feedbacks for them,did not go to see them...I dont know what to think. But I miss him a lot...
what do I do now???

1000% what Nameless said ^^.
YOU deserve someone who will make you happy, accept you for who you are, who wants the same things as you. Never ever accept anything less.
As Maya Angelou famously said....?Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option.?    and in his case you're a free option too:-(

Cut all ties asap.

HUGS

basically your good enough to shag but most defiantly not wife or girlfriend material to take home and introduce to his family 

First of all it taking your out for coffees and lunch and then it dwindle to only visiting you at your place where its convenient for him

You have become a friends with benefit for him,   although i wouldn't class him as a friend in the slightest 

He seems to be using you for free sex or somewhere to go when he has nothing else on

When you meet a man in civilian life relationships are hard enough  when you do it through escorting its generally a thousand times harder   

Alexis it doesnt matter how much you liked him, the feelings werent reciprocated.

Move on .......................................

I can only echo what the other girls have said, but somehow I dont think that is what you want to hear.

He is after a free shag and nothing else, sorry.

Time IS  a great healer, it WILL pass.

Thanks again. I know that I have to move on,we are not really talking now,maybe a have a good night or have a nice day,but that is it really.
To be honest I dont want him to pay,it's not what i need from him. It would hurt me every time when I see him. There is only one way to forget him,to ignore him and not to talk at all. I will try my best.

Hi,

I can't really add to the advice you have been given about this man, but I did want to say...Do not beat yourself up. As Lady Lust says, it WILL pass.

x

It seems like this is something what I do not deserve.

Well he sounds to me like a Grade A manipulative tosser, or maybe even a sex addict.

But I know you won't want to hear that. Most people have been there - I certainly have with men in the past.

But the part above concerns me - of course you deserve to be treated well, like a partner / girlfriend if this is what you want. Of course you do. Perhaps you could look into why you feel you don't deserve a proper relationship with a man? Maybe get some counselling x x x 

Just remember he can only manipulate you if you allow it.  He has shown that you mean nothing to him other than a release of sexual tension, just remember that every time you get upset about him.

He is playing mind games with you because he cannot take reality ie. a real person showing real emotions. Its time to take control and realise that you are worth so much more than this kind of treatment.  I think for your own sanity you should cut all contact with this guy, that is the only way you are going to get over him.