Is anyone else starting to feel really anxious and panicky about it all? I'm feeling the pinch now I've stopped seeing clients, and I've been an anxious wreck for days. I feel like crying...
I was like this at first for many reasons partly because it wasn't just the sex work I lost, also I was trying to get things in place against a few tides. Much is now resolved and I feel better, not perfect but OK for now.
And yes I wanted to give in, cry and at some points die. I've had those thoughts and tried it years ago, it was tempting but I have plenty of arguments against doing something like that again.
So no tantrums yet, but there have been tears. Also the fear affected my digestive tract which is a normal stress response for me along with raised heartbeat, flushing and generally feeling sick as well as wierd.
Life has just changed hugely, loss of work, identity, hopes, goals just gone.