Sorry if this sounds utterly bizarre but I've been on a break for a few years as I had children and this past day can't stop feeling guilty about a client I had, I mean we have plenty of married guys but this guy was early 30s, extremely good looking and a fantastic client very respectful friendly complimentary etc, however he was married but the issue is he had a gigantic tattoo of his wife and young son on his wedding day across his whole back, it was extremely well done realistic and huge and the image is burned into my mind of this gorgeous classy looking woman looking amazingly happy and I dunno I just feel extremely guilty I was fucking her husband and she probably never knew, he was a regular lived in the small Valley I was from and she apparently thought he was at the gym when he visited me. I just feel very sad thinking about it and extremely guilty what the hell is wrong with me I had tons of married clients but this one kinda upsets me now, is it because I've seen her face looking so happy on her wedding day?
I've never felt like this before but keep thinking about it recently has anyone ever had similar feelings?
K, I know where you are coming from, but please don't feel guilty. If that is more difficult than it seems, try to think why you feel guilty at the moment. Is it because of the tattoo, or is it because he was really good looking and maybe you felt something, or something else?
Our job is to keep our good clients happy so they keep coming back and our loyalty is to the clients and their envelopes. A happy client is a man who will be happy in the rest of his life/relationships too. There is a reason why this man chose you to be regular customer, and you did your job well since he relied on you enough to return each time. If his family relationship is good after seeing you, that is a good thing.
I'm married myself, and while it's a bit different perhaps because my husband knows what I do every day and actively supports my career, someone else's marriage is nothing for you to feel guilty about.