There is nowhere else to go to express my anger/frustration over this job we do than here.
I am sure there have been numerous threads about just this topic before, but, I have to vent and it's not like I can vent to my friends/family!
Sorry in advance, this is possibly going to be very self indulgent!
If I get one more TW. Moron. Idiot. Wanker (I do love we can let rip and swear on here!) Toss-pot. Shit for Brains - call me up or text me or email me again I am going to explode into a rage of the mentally sick and really start to whip some arse. The next man that decides it is fun to string me along or send pathetic messages to me is going to get it and get it good
I know I should rise above it all. I know that for personal safety reasons it is best to shut up and ignore these fools. You don't know if they will book you in the future and then give you some payback for your blunt words but really, what the hell do the sad people get out of it all?
You all know the score:
The bookings made but never carried out.
The phonecalls you get where they ask pathetic questions - you know they are not going to book you.
The text messages 'r u free hon' Then when you don't reply 'why u nt answer?' Then when you still do not reply 'yur loss hon'
The emails where they sound genuine enough but then they go ask for face photo's and the old classic 'I have read your site - tell me more about yourself to convince me to book you.'
When one or two come along at the same time, it's easy to ignore them.
When you have almost 2 weeks of this shit and only this shit. When you can not find a real, proper booking in amongst the idiots, you start to get a bit pissed off.
Ok, I have been ill. I was unable to work last week and I lost real, proper bookings because of that.
That made me mad to begin with but add to that the bloody idiots that have contacted me this week and I want to scream!
I know it will all pan out. When am back to feeling 100% better and over this bloody horrible cold/flu thing I will be better equipped to deal mentally with these men.
For the first time ever since I began doing this I stopped and thought yesterday why I am bothering? I hate it. I hate my phone, I hate the sort of men I have to deal with on a daily bloody basis.
I know feeling this way is down to feeling rotten physically and the TW's that are wiping out my last reserve of strength. But I felt it all the same.
And it was not so nice to think that way about something that, through all it's up's and down's I can honestly say I have largely enjoyed doing.
Thankfully, I have learned from the past to keep money back just in case I did ever get ill or woke up to 10 foot snow drifts that lasted for a fortnight and no work could be performed. It's not the not earning that has put me in this dark mood, it is the time wasters. I have even gone through sites to see if neg feedback had been left by somebody as the level of TW's has been extreme - there is nothing anywhere.
I am seriously jacked off today and possibly will feel this way until I am back to normal health wise and have some decent, regular clients come by again.
Writing this rant has helped me. My shoulders have relaxed, I am not so hunched over the computer ready to fire off a blistering email to the latest TW 'You need to convince me more to see you love....'
I know you all get it when I say it. Nobody else would get it. TW's one at a time can be handled. But, in a pack they are terribly hard work and drain all our patience and positivity. If the law of averages is true, I am due some nice clients in a pack now? You would think? And here is hoping !
A weekend of relaxation ahead for me I think....
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