Don't worry, i'm not gunna write an article about every single client lol but after not getting anyone this week i didn't expect to get anyone today but i did. When i turned up he gave me a bunch of flowers which i thought was pretty sweet and then we had wine and chatted for a bit. Then moved onto the bedroom to get to it and then time seemed to go no where (1 hour booking) and he asked to extend to an extra half hour which was fine with me.

Anyways, he was absolutly huge penis wise, i'd never seen one that big  I honestly thought to myself "i don't know how that's gunna go in me when apparantly i'm tight anyway. But luckily it did go in, didn't hurt but i surprisingly bled.
Anyways, he was quite rough but i know my limits and i feel confident now in being able to tell someone if i'm not happy with something. Like he asked to stick a finger up my bum and i said "sorry, i don't do anything bum related" which he was fine about. I'm glad i don't feel pressured to say yes just cause i'm a newbie. I'm happy though cause he gave me a good review and said he wants to see me again.

Just to sum things up anyways, it's amazing what this job has done for me so far. I know i've only had 3 clients but before this i hated my body, i've had an Eating disorder for 4 years and i was dated raped by a trusted friend nearly 2 years ago and all of a sudden my body issues are vanishing, i guess i'm on a high from all the compliments i've recieved, my eating habbits are weirdly changing for the better. I'm allowing myself to eat properly rather than starve and i actually don't feel bad about it for once in my life. Also i feel like being able to act "wild" in the bedroom and be someone else has done wonders to my confidence since the rape cause before this, i was just in a shell sex wise. It's kind of been theraputic i guess. Anyways, i'll shut up now haha!

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Sooooo true... X

Hey,

Been there...

It does make me wonder if that is why you often feel the need for all the eyelashes/nails/tan etc?

I was in a nasty relationship years ago and it plummeted my confidence, bit by bit. It took me ages to get that most men are absolutely made up with the simple fact a woman is naked...add to that that she is uninhibited sexually and they are blown away. I have so many physical flaws, yet this month I am still running a total of only 1 client not rebooking. Not being 'perfect' can make it harder to get initial bookings, but smile for England, make them feel that they are sexually appealing and exciting to you and that they are not part of an endless line of gents and they will rebook.

I do wonder if your 'mask' will come down as you start to feel more confident?

H x

Aww, i'm glad this has helped you in some way too. It's amazing what you realise about men lol. And i definatly think that the mask will tone down slowly but surely so long as i carry on doing this lol.

You are you hunny youve had a bit of a do,, contentment  comes from within and its when you realise who you are and what you are.... Relationships to me are  compromise all on your side...  Im not being patronising sweets i wouldnt dream of it.. but i could be ya mum and we are both on the same side .. youve had a rough ride at such a young age and i can well see the issues you have with yourself.. you are a lovely beautiful lady and i see you have a heart of gold.. your sister as others have said, is very jealous of your freedom and the chance of doing what you ,quite rightly ,  want to do.. if you really didnt want to do it you wouldnt be plugging away  and seeing if it will work!! When i started out it was weeks before i saw my first client so i take my hat off to you.. just stay safe and be true to yourself.. just so glad your mum is being supportive as my mum is..  you will work out whether its the right thing to do soon enough.. nothing lost,  but a load of experience and being wiser gained.. sleep well chica and be true to yourself xxxxxxxxx

You are you hunny youve had a bit of a do,, contentment  comes from within and its when you realise who you are and what you are.... Relationships to me are  compromise all on your side...  Im not being patronising sweets i wouldnt dream of it.. but i could be ya mum and we are both on the same side .. youve had a rough ride at such a young age and i can well see the issues you have with yourself.. you are a lovely beautiful lady and i see you have a heart of gold.. your sister as others have said, is very jealous of your freedom and the chance of doing what you ,quite rightly ,  want to do.. if you really didnt want to do it you wouldnt be plugging away  and seeing if it will work!! When i started out it was weeks before i saw my first client so i take my hat off to you.. just stay safe and be true to yourself.. just so glad your mum is being supportive as my mum is..  you will work out whether its the right thing to do soon enough.. nothing lost,  but a load of experience and being wiser gained.. sleep well chica and be true to yourself xxxxxxxxx

Aww, what a lovely reply, thanks so much for that, definatly food for thought You're so righy though, i do have to be true to myself. Again, i know i've only had 3 clients but the confidence it's given me so far and the issues i've had for so long that i'm now over coming, even my mum said she thinks if i want to do this i should carry on and make sure my sister doesn't find out cause the change in me for the better is remarkable. I just soo hope that although i'm no longer on the agency site, she'll still let me have Wednesdays booking cause i told her i'd still honour it and she said she'd let me know if he confirms.

LOL@ huge penis.....  don't know about anyone else but I do worrying about encountering a Beast that has a life of it's own.